I miss..

The Rugby Comp. Team (although in this picture, i am very dirty. :),

jacq n saliva,

the coterie - saliva, nette, jiajia,weister (feat jacq[above] and...

valerie, who wasn't there to take a photo with us, but she's in the coterie no doubt.

My loves. 9 of you (including clint's ghostly apparition),

Soy,

TKHGEORGE AND SIRHAN H,

NCCCCCCC ,

Feeza FISH..

There are many more actually, but I don't have the photos of some. So I guess, i'll just have to end here. Moreover, the main aim of this post is to tell you that I've won the battle of the Z-monster.

Okay Bye.

I miss and love gilbert.

WHY SO SERIOUS?

The weirdest thing of all is to have a Mac software on my computer. :S I've never been a Mac fan. The only apple device that has been quite friendly to me would be the Ipod Classic. But other than that, I guess I'll have to say goodbye. It took me quite awhile to realise the function of right clicking on a Mac computer and that if you hover your mouse over the top of the screen, the entire screen changes to a window mode where you can view all windows at a single glance.

Okay, the main thing is that since I use Ipod, it's a no wonder thing that I should be using iTunes too, right? So yeah, I use iTunes. One day iTunes was begging to be updated, so I update, allowing everything that was on the "you should update these"list - Not knowing that I've allowed the 'Safari' to install on my poor computer which is running on low memory already. GAHH, so now, I'm using Safari, reluctant about deleting it away cos it's quite nice to use (don't ask why/how cos the 'nice' that I'm using is rather intangible.) But still quite hesitant about leaving it on my comp due to low memory.

Okay lah, I think I'll just leave it, until my computer has NO space at all. I seriously think it's pretty cool. Really. I mean, Mac users all seem to be quite atas one. So I shall see what's so atas about using the safari in a Macbook. (alright, I shall stop giving excuses for myself already)

I'm really sleepy these few days due to the medication that I'm taking to cure my nonsense drama nose and head, thus, I'm unable to perform any action on my notes and books and stuff, which sucks by the way because exams are no friggin joke and time is really really really running out, like what the hell lah. Oh, and I have not ran this week. Sickening. 

As we speak, my eyelids are drooping and my voice, getting lower and my nose, running faster and faster. But I have to battle against the Z-monster, and befriend my enemies. In other words, I just have to work now. like NOW. 

I just yawned, btw. gah 

Irreplaceable.

Hi,

So I did go for the celebration last night (thank God I did) at the expense of of tissue paper which was running out at an increasing rate. I'm kinda lazy to upload Clint's photo, but I guess not, for it wasn't a really happy day for him as Jannie wasn't there and Car left halfway to drink with her friends. I guess no matter how great and expensive was the present that we bought for him, without a special someone, the present is nothing. But it was her choice, and I'm proud of the fact that she accounted for her actions, though her presence there would definitely better than the account. But oh well. For the other, I don't know. I'm as speechless as you 7 boys.

Now, I'm paying for the crazy night I had last night. I've received fever and flu from God, probably a punishment for enjoying the shit out of myself and even had the intention to drink. But Mat didn't really allow. Cos he knows that my Mom would probably freaked out and I won't be able to chill out late anymore. I think I can hold my liquor well leh - not that I've tried before, but I think I know where to stop. Moreover, I think the maximum those guys will allow would probably be a cup? No - probably not. The last time we played some drinking games with alcohol as the forfeit, Mathew drank for me. GAH I FEEL LIKE A LOSER NOW. (At least I don't drink when I'm hungry and let myself starve to death, youknow youknow.) Let's just wait till I'm 18(which isn't very far away) and we'll speak about such stuff again.

So I'm frigging sick - with every intention to pon because I can't be bothered. But I'll still complete my homework, considering the fact that I should be responsible and yadayadaalltheshitstuffaboutmoralsandvalueswouldgohere.

This is my friend, Yup, he's usually this spastic but I love it when he plays the drums. HAH!

Okay, so, I'm hungry.

The LAST straw

I did crap today because I fell sick. I'm so friggin lousy, I can't stand it. While typing this entry, I'm breaking out in cold sweat due to sneezing like a frog for the past few hours while watching WZBQW on youtube just now despite being in an aircon room. And NOW, I have to attend a birthday celebration which I really want to go, but don't know can make it anot as you all know, night times are like the only time for me to study, not forgetting the fact that now I'm sick, terribly. I don't know what to wear later either.

Good news is that I've watched till the episode that Mingdao fell in love back with QIAOEN and this makes me feel way much better emotionally. But the pressure of A's now is able to offset any pleasing feeling I would be feeling for the next ten years. The impact is so powderful I tell you that it's similar to the bombings at Hiroshima and Nagasaki a few decades back.

I'm cold now. You won't blame me for attending the celebration in my OHSOSHUAI windbreaker right?

I demand an explanation for my useless body. Can't even run. Not even nice. Might as well just go and die.

GAHH, I need to go bathding now. Byeworld. OH! I NEED TO UPLOAD NICE GROUP PHOTOS ON THE TOUCH RUG BLOG SO THAT THEY WILL PICK ONE WITH A CHIO-ER US. HAHAHAH OKAY BYE

Out of my head

I miss playing game with some of the guys. It's been awhile since we met up to play on saturdays. I think the last time was during the June holidays? Which is like more than a month already. So there's Boony, Willy, Eddy, Geoffrey, Desmond, James, etc. GAHH. Okay, we should meet up, army boys. Too long breaks are no good :( But then again, I really need to catch up on sleep during saturdays as I WILL wake up early on Sundays to watch my drama... -.-

Anyway, finally played like a proper game with the juniors. They've improved! Better than before and I hope the change would be constant. HEH. So, makaned with coterie, brigs, ting, jamie, pat and bf chester, which was so freaking funny because of certain rated stuff we were talking about - despite the presence of guys which we didn't give any hoots about because they are guys and will always be guys.

And jamie is like stalking me again. HAHAHAHAHAHHA IM KIDDING EDMUND, DON'T TRY TO SAVE JIAYU'S LIFE ANYMORE. YOU ARE INDIRECTLY KILLING HER. LOL

The school's being slightly bitchy because of the donation cards. I think donation cards irritate the shit outta me (and my other friends) and remembering the fact that they have 4 different collection dates in total, where they expect you to keep increasing the amount you've collected on behalf of the school. Which is quite stupid because what me and my classmates are doing, is to fork out our own money and say that we collected from other people. Indirectly, we are the sole donaters of our card. I've been slicing my own allowance into tinier pieces for various reasons - ART, taking up almost everything, food - like my daily dosage of fruit tart and soon to be chengtng and printing of notes - which is like duh since our class owes Uncle Henry (bookshop unlce) $146+. GAHHH I want to declare bankrupt, but I think if I were to declare bankrupt, they'll take away my precious stuff like camera, card reader, handphone, laptop, valuable notes.. etc. AND OMG MY RUGBY BALL!? NO WAY YO.

I think I sound like a lunatic now (like what's new) and sudden craving for Aston's. (sylvia hint hint:) Okay, I miss the coterie right now despite just seeing them like few hours ago, playing our common game together. :(


SUPERDUPERTIREDANDISTILLGOT2FULLLENGHtECONSESSAYWOOOSH

So I felt really uncomfortable today despite not eating which I clearly do not know the reason why. But the completion of 9.5km within 2 days is quite happening for me. Especially today's 4km run with jiajia, owning~! We didn't stop at all for 3.2km straight. COOL RIGHT. NO!? I THINK IT'S VERY COOL.

Other than that, yogi created a blog(like WOW) and I miss him like crazyyyyyyy. HAHA :D

I'm pretty tired right now. Think I'll have more crap to type tmr or something. Mathew's birthday and BATMAN were thumbs up.

till then, with jac bb:D

BYE

YES. YES! YES!

my niang says that MINGDAO IS HOT. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

MINGDAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. (:

okay bye, friggin sick.

The world lost a great actor.

"Do you want to know how I got my scars?"

"You see, my dad, was a drunkard. And whenever he was drunk, which is most of the time, he will hit my mom. And one day, he took the knife and started slashing my mom into pieces. I saw everything. Then, he turned to me, and asked me, 'Why so serious?' Which then, he put the blade into my mouth and did this*"

*this = putting the blade into the sides of the mouth and pulling it upwards on both side, making a smile.

Like this:

Ruggers don't die so easily

Ruggers don't die so easily.

I'm gonna persevere on and get the grades I want and get in into NUS FASS & rugby team.

Because Ruggers don't die so easily.

I didn't go through training for nothing.

WTH?!

GAHHH I can't believe this, I'm actually feeling horrible over a Taiwan drama that's playing the second time currently in Singapore every sundays from 10-12pm. I'm feeling horrible because, the male lead, which is Dangou has regained his memory and leaves Tianyu (and his new life) to go back to his fiancee and old life - which is of a wealthy hotel manager.(I WAS CRYING LIKE MAD OKAY) And double whammy to me because I was so damn tired on saturday from gp in the morning till noon and studying from noon till 5 plus, I zonked out the minute I got home and slept till sunday 1pm. Indirectly, I'm here to complain that I missed a total of 2 whoopping episodes of this drama(AND MINGDAO! OMG) and had to spend my entire week's allowance on buying the VCD which cost me another whoopping $26.90 apart from my Art fares because I couldn't stand the fact of being slower in this so called marathon with the TV station.

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO THE BOTH OF THEM WHEN I WAS SLEEPING OMG!.

and much to my dismay, they both fell out and he hates the daylight out of her right now. For your info, that was the third whammy for me. *stabs self repeatedly in chest. Like seriously.

I think I shouldn't get so serious about this drama because in reality, ceteris paribus assumption does not hold this doesn't really happen. And even if it were to happen, I don't think the guy would be so hot as Mingdao. HAHAHA (SHUTUP). So anyway, as I was saying,

I think (again) that this Taiwan drama is just another medium for me to vent my anger, to have someone to scold at(OMG I TELL YOU THE FIANCEE....... must get slapped), and use the current situation that Tianyu (female lead) is facing right now as an excuse for me to bawl my eyes out (it works you know, one minute I was crying my soul out because he left her, and before she could even cry, certain parts of my life flashes infront of me and I'll continuing crying like mad - still crying when the female lead got consoled and comforted while I have nothing but a few cheapskate pillows from Ikea to cry into and hug.)

Okay, now that I've blogged out my frustrations for the moment, I shall go do some work so relief myself from the guilt that I've been carrying for the past week or so due to friggin A's.

On a lighter side, I realised I typed alot of long sentences in this post and Mustafa Shopping centre seems to be a rather happening place to shop at for both Art and Wayang accesories because they have EVERYTHING - including stamps for Miss Tan so that she'll stop stamping the "Parent's Signature" thing on our papers and instead, stamp some stuff like 3 stars or a monkey all over saying "Good work!". That would surely help. I think I might just supply her with that. Sound exciting?

Oh no, that's a pretty long sentence too.

Quite appalled at the fact that the choices that many people choose to forgo is actually way bigger than the one they've chosen. I don't get it - last time, but after a walk under similar void decks and around the soccer court, I realised the reason for choosing it - Passion. Something that many of us have to forgo for the sake of monetarial reasons, which apparently suck.

To think about, being materialistic isn't that bad either. Shopping therapy? Sounds cool. I guess it's the perspective that one sees things. Shopping therapy "heals" both body and the mind. But what about the duration? Is it for long? Or only for the moment. And will Shopping Therapy make things worse? Like regret - for buying the wrong item and the wrong time. I don't know, but for me, shopping therapy works well for me - at times when I have the money that is.

Money gets you alot of things. Money gets you grades, your cert, your education, your knowledge, your house, your comfort, your reputation, leisure, and probably memories. People always question "what about love? Money can't get you love." I supposed so. But without money, how strong is the love? No doubt Love will be present because it is the thing that causes 2 souls or more to be intertwined, but the ending entirely depends on the individual her/his self. Are you willing to go through thick and thin with your half? Are you sure? Are you saying this just that you'll win this so-called argument? Or probably to save your reputation of being a nice person? I don't know, as I've said, it depends on the individual.

The reason of this post is to tell you that: I've bought my Qing Wa Bian Wang Zi VCD and I'm absolutely in love with DangOu/Mingdao. This sucks.

Sometimes, I wish I can just erase part of my memories or probably all. Sometimes I wish I was like a programmed robot - trained to do technical stuff without any feelings or whatever because such stuff just hurt so bad at times. :( But then again, I wouldn't want to sacrifice all the good times I had with my friends just because of a small issue that I'm sure that I'll get over it in a matter of time. Wait, will I even get over it and live life the way it is?

The meeting with Jannie and Pseng was outrageously random. It was after art and a few rounds around the track that left me both mentally and physically drained (art kills, fyi) to the extent that I slept in 72 all the way till tampines. And Pseng, whom Jannie supposedly called first came extremely late. HAHAHAH. As usual, Pseng without his usual tardiness is NOT Pseng. He even attempted to be serious with the both of us, like wth. After goofing around with us for about 4 years and now you tell me you want to be serious!? PSENG! WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!! LOL. But the meet-up was both a good and bad one - good because I got to see the both of them (:, bad because I ate back everything I ran at Popeye's. Sian diao.

Anyway, the trip back home with Pseng was weirdly intellectual, considering the fact that in the past when the both of us chill together, we rarely talk about stuff that requires thinking (although more than half the time it would be me teasing him like FREEE) because, I don't know, it's just not like the both of us to confide in each other. Probably because he was reallly kiddy last time and was a hardcore emo kid that listens to his punk-rock-screamo-EMO-grunge songs on his phone while we were talking. So like half the time, he'll be in his own emo-dark-sorcery-filled world. heh.

Oh yes, it was weirdly intellectual because he asked questions that I would never have imagined to be asked, or to be coming from him, yes, especially him, like of all people, him. To the extent I think I was pretty natural infront of him for the first time. So we talked about Trust, Reasons of joing rugby when I know I'm gonna get injured for sure, Feelings, haircuts, people in my school thinking i'm gay, people in my school thinking that long hair=attached, etc (you know, the usual topics that emo kids will talk about yadayada).

Pseng! NI ZHANG DA LE. HAHAHAHAH.

Anyway, Jannie was saying I sound weird calling her 'Jannie' in real life cos I've never really called her by "Jannie" It's always "WIFEY, wife, qwahqwah, chen!" And yeah, I found it pretty weird too :) It's ok. HAHAHA.

So it was a sudden realisation that Passion & Money is a hard combination to come by - at least for me.

I need to save:

$26.90 for my Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa VCD.
$17 for my BodyShop spray. GAHHH.

& I just realised that I have not uploaded the Beach Touch photos. :(

I don't understand myself, seriously. I don't understand why do I get (s0) affected by something that is totally not related to me at all. It is very irritating for me. It takes awhile for me to get composed and reflect about the things that I did at the point of insanity - which often ends up with me being utterly embarrassed (not like I've not done any embarrassing things when I'm clearly not insane.) *rolls eyes.

Also, I tend to execute stupid strategies when adrenaline is pumping like mad. Like unknowingly grabbing someone's hand while playing catching - like wth right? And I only realised it when the stupid person held on back to my hand. (like why on earth do you hold hands with someone that sudden grabs your hand!?), then I was like thinking "Shit man, what the heck am I holding?! Shitshitshit, I'm holding on to someone. OMG IT'S YOU. SHIT" - and this often results in both parties breaking out in different shades at red and claiming that it's the heat from all the running. Shoepid. And when I got back home, I couldn't believe I did such a stuff. I feel so disgusted with myself, like totally. *like please kill yourself, now.*

GOOGOOGAHGAHHH!

I think photography has both it's pros and cons (okay, I know this is totally random, still...)

Bye.

"can you revert back to your old self and let me hug you one last time? just for 10seconds. be like who you were last time. only 10seconds. and after that, i'll pretend that i've never known you."

"why should i?"

"because.."

"say it if you have the guts."

"because, I miss you."

Pre Beach Touch Symptoms

I never knew having a portable PC could be so cool. :D & I bought it in the name of Art. Anyway, the main point is that, tomorrow's BEACH TOUCH DAY! Coolios man. I can't wait to get tanned all over again (familiar eh). And Vic's house after Sentosasing. BERRY COOL WORX.

Art today was fun. Miss Yeo was saying that HanPin's name sounded like "Humping" whenever we call him. It was damn funny la, the poor boy wasn't even doing anything to defend himself. LOL.

So, I bought tanning oil despite the fact that JY said not to because Val and Jacq has it. I think I'll be using it in the near future also, so why not just invest now? Maybe I'll be more broke in the future than I am currently right now. No thanks to school. (roll eyes). And i'll be using it TOMORROW for beach touch and come back home to scare the hell out of my mother because she hates me being tanned and under the sun for long hours. HAHAHA. I love my laoma and laopa man.

AND due to the fact that it is a new comp, it doesn't have Adobe flash player, MSN, iTunes yadayada. I only transfered David Cook's Always Be My Baby from my cellphone. This makes me very sad (Wtf) because I can't get to play my Mingdao videos and songs. :( I don't want to live anymore, just kidding. I think Emelle will kill me when she sees this and Cynthia too - cos she thinks Ethan RUAN is hotter. HAHAHAH. Whatever, we're crazy over some guy that doesn't even know about our existence. School drives us mad and to desperation. TSK.

(I keep forgetting about the mouse. -.-)

Okay la, I hate to admit to embarassing stuff, but the reason why I am blabbering non-stop is because the keyboard is berry nice to type. HAHAHAHA. And they gave me a free wireless mouse! Everything is wireless nowadays. So scary. Can we have wirelessbrainless exams too? JUST KIDDING OH C'MON.

BYE! time to pack for beach touch:D

It's been 10 years.

10 long years. From 8 to 18. From a netballer to a touch rugger. From a PriSchool kid to a JC student. From taking for granted to missing.

So, my very happening Uncle from Finland just left after supper-ing and chit chatting. OKAY, I'd probably will say this but yeah, I think after 10 years of not seeing him, I do miss him. Afterall he used to spoilt me with alot of gifts like a keyboard, clothes and accessories(the girly era) and is always siding me (LOL, till now!). He supports the fact that we all should have some sports regime and that getting tan is cool. Also, that getting tied down too early wouldn't be nice for me.

& my mom attempted to sell me off again. HAHAHA. sian.

He's back without my sis and kids to work. So, it's quite sian for him cos he wants to go back to Finland asap. And why am I telling you about my Uncle? It's MY Uncle btw. Stupid me. I WANT TO SEE MY NEPHEWS, THEY ARE BERRY CUTE. HEHEX. And of all things to take back, my sis wanted chilli and curry powder - of all things. HAHAH.

Why must everybody I know, leave me one day?

And now, as a matter of factly - why must you leave us now? To think we thought that it was pretty awkward when you first joined us, and now? You're leaving, and probably never looking back again, which I pray not.

Why must people leave? Is it me or what? If it's me, can you all don't leave and let me leave instead?

I can't cope with losses. I really can't.

You were our inspiration. You'll always be.